I hope you have a good night
I hope you have sweet dreams
I hope tomorrow is kind to you
“How do I do this? How do I live? How do I smile without wanting to cry myself to sleep. How do I tell them I’m only getting worse not any better. It’s hard. Its getting really hard to do this.”— g.d (i dont know how long i can do this for)
There are things that you have to do. Wheather you like it or not. And this is me doing something I don’t like. I have to leave. I have to let go. Because as much as I want to stay, I can’t breath. As much as I want to smile, I can’t bring myself to feel happy. I feel like I’m choking. I feel like I’m being drowned by the thing that used to make me laugh and feel light as a feather.
As much as it pains me, as much as I hate this. I need to do this for me. I just hope, one day, we will be alright. And I hope that come time, I don’t feel like I’m about to lash out or constantly be ticked of things that used to make me laugh.
I never wanted it to be like this. But it is and we can’t change that. I can’t make you do anything I know you won’t like. I can’t. So I have to leave, I have to leave till you alone understand.
Till we meet again my friends… 2:24AM, THURSDAY 18/18
“Now I know, I’ve got to run away, I’ve got to get away.”— Soft Cell, Tainted Love
“There comes a point where you no longer care if there’s a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You’re just sick of the tunnel.”— Ranata Suzuki
